ANGECHANWRITER
Lights
Annie sat alone in the empty train carriage as it hurtled at speed through the Essex countryside. It was pitch dark outside,
but flashing images of trees and lights passed her by and gave her a comforting reassurance in the inky black night. She
looked along the empty carriage, into the next one… a smattering of people were on the late night train… Annie could clearly
see a smartly dressed man in his late fifties, and two twenty something girls who were dressed to the nines, slightly
disheveled and doubtlessly on their way home from a night out in London. Annie noticed that they had matching handbags
and chuckling to herself at the irrelevant, meaningless details you took on board regarding complete strangers.
Annie thought back to her own evening in the Capital. She’d met three of her closest friends for tapas and sympathy at a
new Spanish restaurant she’d wanted to try out. Annie counted herself lucky that she had such good friends to rely on.
Life had been really tough for Annie recently, and she didn’t realise how much she actually needed to lean on her friends
for support, until tonight. She’d spent the last fortnight on auto pilot as she tried to navigate her way through a mountain
of raw emotions and heartache. Tonight was her first night out in weeks, and she was grateful that she hadn’t allowed
her personal expectations of the evening to be set too highly. She knew from experience that more often than not, high
expectations (both in life and in nights out) often resulted in bitter disappointment. Better to have low expectations and
have them exceeded, she thought.
As she contemplated the solitude of being completely alone in the train carriage, Annie had a strange desire to run up and
down the aisles, or do something similarly crazy just for the hell of it. She rapidly dismissed the idea, knowing that the
people in the next carriage would surely see her and form judgments. Maybe they would think she’d lost her mind, or was in a panic, and they’d pull the emergency cord to bring the train to a screeching and violent halt.
Annie decided that running up and down the carriage wasn’t such a good idea after all. She checked her wristwatch. It was
22.53. She mentally tried to calculate how long it would be before she’d be home and realised that she had no concept of
exactly where she was at that point in her journey. Annie was going to the end of the line, and therefore had no concerns
about actually missing her intended destination; however she hadn’t been paying attention at the passing station names
and now suddenly that information seemed unexplainably crucial to her. Mild panic set in as Annie wondered how much
longer she had to travel. She hated not being in full possession of the facts.
Annie’s wandering thoughts were interrupted when, all of a sudden, the train started to slow down rather quickly. She
noted that they weren’t pulling into a station and thought to herself “Maybe I did run up and down the carriage without
realising it. Maybe I'm going to be thrown off the train?” She immediately dismissed the stupid idea as soon as it had
entered her head, knowing for a fact that it was untrue and that her mind was merely playing tricks with her. As the train
finally came to a complete standstill Annie looked outside and noticed that they were in the middle of the countryside. It
was really very dark outside and distant pinpricks of light on the horizon gave no clues regarding an approximation of
where they were. She looked in the next carriage which was now, bizarrely, completely empty. “That's odd.... What's going
on?!” she said out loudly to the empty carriage. She was absolutely certain that they hadn’t stopped at a station since she
last looked just a few moments ago. Annie was growing more and more curious about the strange situation she had
momentarily found herself in the middle of.
A blinding light suddenly approached the carriage in front from within the space of the train, and almost looked like it
was searching for something. In the blink of an eye, it engorged the space of Annie’s compartment and rested there, like
a pulsating life force within it. The light was so white and unyielding that Annie flinched at its brightness, and then felt an
immense wave of calmness pass over her, absolving her of all her recent woes.
Annie checked her wristwatch again. 00.40. Utterly confused by this new information, she got up and walked along the
carriage to look into the next compartment again just to satisfy herself that there really was no one else about. Maybe
there was someone else there if she looked more carefully, she reasoned. When she reached the end of the confines of the
carriage space, Annie could now see far back through the length of the train and she saw that all of the carriages were in
fact, empty. She turned and ran through the translucent bright light, to the opposite end of the carriage. It was the same;
not one person could be seen along the vast void. She tried to peer outside the graffit scratched windows to establish where
on earth she was, cupping her hands around her eyes to defy the bright glowing lights which now resided within the train
carriage.
“How could two hours have passed so fleetingly”, thought Annie. “This is ridiculous!” She didn’t drink, she didn’t take
drugs, and although she’d been under a lot of stress, there was no history of blackouts in her medical background. She
searched her mind for anything which might have rationalised the seemingly two hour lapse in events. She was tired,
that much was true, and she had been under an inordinate amount of stress recently, but to lose two hours of time in
such an unlikely location was just plain silly. Annie went back to her seat and closed her eyes to block out the
dazzling pulsating light.
Despite her best efforts to rationalise the situation, Annie could only establish the basic fact that the train had stopped
in the middle of the countryside for no apparent reason. Location; most definitely, unknown. And this bright light…
where had that come from? It seemed to hang in the air like a celestial translucent mist, breathing a life force from within.
There was nothing eerie about it. On the contrary, it seemed to bring a sense of calm to this unexplained situation Annie
had found herself in. She dreamily felt her mind drifting pleasantly to happy times in her distant past; landmark
occasions with friends, fun holidays and exciting events.
Annie’s psyche drifted back to her current position and again she tried to rationalise the facts into a logical sequence.
Wondering what to do and realising pretty rapidly that she was in this situation on her own and there wasn’t anything
(short of jumping from the train) that she could do about it.
Waves of tranquility were washing over Annie like the shoreline on a deserted beach of golden sands, which gradually
calmed her mood as it ebbed and flowed. She had been highly anxious over the past couple of weeks, and was grateful
of the bountiful release.
Annie’s thoughts turned to Richard, her lovely fiancé, who had been in a coma for ten days following a car accident,
two weeks ago.
Annie had spent as many of her waking hours in the hospital as humanly possible, keeping a vigil by Richard’s bedside.
She had talked non stop to him, played his favourite ‘Everything But The Girl’ CD over and over, and singing “their song”
to him in time with Tracy Thorn’s vocals. She lovingly stroked his forehead, and wept buckets in the sterile hospital room,
with its emotionless and joyless décor. She realised that on this train, here and now, she was currently feeling exactly the
same emotions as she did in that hospital room; feeling that Richard was nearby, but knowing he was in another place
altogether.
Finally after ten anxious days, Richard thankfully emerged out of his coma.
Today was five days later. Richard had insisted that Annie met with her friends after he learned of her bedside vigil.
Besides, his parents were visiting today and the ward Sister was so strict with their “two at a bedside” rule. Annie
relented, despite wanting to spend everywaking hour with her partner, and agreed that a night out with her best
friends was just what she needed to restore her equilibrium. Richard was completely right, even in a post-coma state of mind. Annie didn’t know what she would do without him.
Suddenly, Annie’s mobile phone started to ring. She opened her handbag and searched for the phone, finding it nestled
in the corner.
“Hello” she answered, tentatively.
“It’s the Royal London here, Sister Joan speaking. I’m sorry to tell you that your fiancé Richard passed away this evening.
Are you able to come into hospital to say your goodbyes?” said the quiet voice.
“I’m stuck on a train at the moment” said Annie, “but I’ll get there as soon as I can.”
Annie put the phone in her bag and started to weep at the news. Richard was gone, yet he felt so near to her heart,
as though he was sat there right beside her, almost holding her in his warm embrace. She was sure that she physically
felt his presence and she ached to hold him in her arms for real, for one last time, seeking the solace that ironically
only he could provide. Instead, she was stuck on this stupid train in the middle of nowhere for no rational reason at all!
The lights in the train carriage suddenly dissipated, and seemed to whoosh away skyward, out of the carriage. As one,
they shot across the night sky, and distantly nestled themselves amongst the stars, as if that was their rightful place
in the galaxy.
Annie put her hands in her head and closed her eyes. When she opened them, the train was moving again. Before she
could gather her thoughts it pulled into her station and the automated electronic voice broke the silence of the
carriage announcing “This is the end of the line. All change please, all change.”
Annie stepped out of the carriage in a daze, walked along the platform to the ticket office and subconsciously passed
her rail ticket through the barrier to allow her to exit the station. She placed the ticket in her bag, and took out her car
keys. No other passengers disembarked and there were no other people at the station. The stillness of the night did
not unnerve Annie.
She walked the short distance to the car park, and located her car in the vast, now almost empty space. She got in the
car and locked the doors before turning on the engine. The dashboard illuminated and she noticed the time. 23.15.
How could that be?! Annie automatically checked her wristwatch again which confirmed that the time was indeed a
quarter past eleven.
Shaking her head and feeling confused and bereft at the same time, whilst seriously doubting her sanity, Annie decided
to immediately call the hospital from her mobile phone to clarify their earlier conversation. After a good minute of
waiting for them to answer, she finally heard “Ward 2B Royal London, this is Sister Joan speaking.”
“It’s Annie Jones here, Richard Benton’s fiancé. I know this sounds mad, but did you call me earlier tonight?”
“No, I didn’t but I can check with one of the other nurses. What was it about?” said Sister Joan, efficiently.
Feeling slightly foolish but relieved, Annie said, “It doesn’t matter now. Erm, how is Richard?”
“He’s sleeping at the moment dear, but he’s responding well to treatment. I’ll let him know that you called, in the morning.
Goodnight.”
“Oh. OK. Goodnight.” Said Annie, slightly dazed and more than a little confused at the new revelation presented to her.
Annie drove the short distance home, and let herself into their shared flat. Their home was silently serene in the darkness.
Annie went straight into the bedroom, stripped off and climbed into the cool sheets of the double bed. After the strange
events of this evening’s train journey home, she was too dazed to remove her make up or jewellery, and soon fell into slumber.
The next day Annie woke feeling bleary eyed. She stumbled into the bathroom, removing the make up grime from her
face and cleaned her teeth. As she walked through the living room en route to the kitchenette, she turned on the TV to
catch breakfast news.
Annie had her head in the fridge, wondering what to have for breakfast when she heard the local London News
newsreader, who was saying something about a stranded train on the local line the night before. The newsreel cut to a
train driver saying he’d seen a flash of blinding light, so bright that he’d made an unprecedented emergency stop to his
empty rail service, and remained there for a couple of hours whilst the strange flash of pulsating light was investigated.
It was initially thought that lightning had hit the train, but that had been dismissed by the investigative team who’d been
called out just after midnight. The unexplained apparition had passed through the carriages like a herd of charging
bulls and stopped around the middle of the train, glowing brightly in the darkness of the night. The train driver
said that he’d never seen anything like it.
Just then, Annie’s phone rang.
“Hello, it’s the Royal London here, Sister Joan speaking. I’m sorry to tell you that your fiancé Richard passed away during
the night. I’m so sorry dear. Are you able to come into hospital to say your goodbyes?”
Annie dropped the phone in shock. It was clear to her now that Richard had already said his goodbyes to her, on the
motionless train, just after midnight, in the middle of nowhere.